Like a Spider's Web

Like a Spider's Web
By Laura Harrison


Love is a form of energy,
Reality
Is that Everything
Is energy

We're not given a map to understand
What lie's beyond what we see
We skim across the surface of reality
Life is filled with mystery

Purposefulness in joy and misery
Discomfort and suffering force you to seek,
New pathways,
New math, Ways
To make
It
All
Flow
Again,
Show again,
Your inner light,

Don't fight the flow,
Don't pretend to know
Unknown outcomes

Trust the moment
Trust resilience
Trust inspiration
Trust that if you turn mystery into music, into art,
It's creating golden light from the dark,

Connecting the layers of reality with silk,
Like a spider's web,
Weaving energy into meaningful beauty.





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Apology+integration

Note: I love Anais Nin, the diarist, and others who freely expose their souls and earned wisdom for the benefit of others. So besides poetry, I'll let myself open that wide- I am an open book anyways, at least about my business. So may my therapy and self-care benefit your path as well. In love and light I offer this to the benefit of all beings.

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The burn and sting of another painful lesson, as I crack further open to dissolve my weakness and bloom.. These little deaths hurt badly, but are quite necessary. Embarrassment is like a hot slap that cuts your heart open. It is a good teacher, but God it can hurt. Feel it, and let it go... Oh, but it feels like shit! Open, don't resist, open wider, let it hurt, because once you cry it out, there is more room for love and wisdom. Hurt, burn, sting, CRY, release, and become lighter and happier again. Hold onto it and sink, and hurt longer; it sucks the joy out of existence. But open wider, faster, hurt more but its gone so fast, like a storm blowing through, ravaging the land, and giving way to a beautiful and brighter day.

You make me look at myself and see not only my beauty, but so it seems, my weakness. Am I strong enough to see your greatness and solidness and to develop my own, and Not be intimidated? Your strength is Not my weakness, your beauty is Not my ugliness. It is my beauty too, but I must live up to it and sacrifice the old habits and ways. I am everything I admire. I just have to live it, and I do, I give everything to live with full trust in my deepest knowing.

I maybe did want your validation and recognition, but not anymore. That IS a desperate and ugly habit. You don't have to see me for who I am for me to know myself as good. I don't need a pat on the head to keep living as I do. I love myself and my path and my life and my world. With or without you.

But I see your greatness, and I want to let you in. I want to share the gift of me with you. I want you to know me. I am giving mySelf to you. You can seek me, maybe I tried too hard to give myself to you. I love you, so much, it's true, and we have not had our time together yet. No time just to be, feel, enjoy. Not yet.

I am so used to change that I don't understand when someone wants to stay around. Everyone has come and gone from my life, and I am ok with that. But that is why I give so hard, say so much, because, like everything else, I am prepared for you to be gone tomorrow and for me to be ok with that. I don't want that to be the case. Fear is useless and not the right path. I have stung myself again, and I have learned. Trust, not fear. So another thing you will teach me is that some people can make conscious promises and can make healthy commitments and stay around and grow together. I am not used to this.

So now already in writing this, I am more free. I have cried. I am lighter. I am shifting my energy from sad and heavy to light and bright. A shower and back to the rest of my blessed existence.

Thank you for this lesson and growth.

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Don't Resist

Don't Resist
By Laura Harrison



Don't resist
Crack wide open
Cry if need be
Die
To who you used to be
Fly,
Don't try,
Just be..
Creative beauty
Flowing out of your heart
Like waterfalls
Ebbs and flows
Stops and stalls
All
Part
Of
The
Ride...



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