Thursday, May 29, 2014

Omniscient Love

Everything I see,
Speaks of you,
And You and me,
Whispers your name,
Sparks love to flow
Into all I do
Changes all I know

Wherever I go
Everything I feel
Reminds me that
This is more than real
This is meant to be

Even miles apart
This connection is live
Felt in the heart
I feel that electricity
That always flows
Between you and me
And silent
Without words
So often
No matter how distant
Feeling the same damn thing
Perfectly one and completely opposite
Like corresponding pieces
Of divine existence
And I offer no resistance

You draw my eyes
Without end or start
Light my heart
My healer
Steal my breath
Right from my chest
And everything
Less than ecstasy
Instantly arrests
You are exactly
What I strived to manifest

Your existence proves
That love is true
That miracles exist
That eternity persists
And it flows through
Me and you

No matter how many times
That I die
To what
You and I
have so far
It doesn't stop
Doesn't change
Other than to rearrange
And grow
wider in my heart
Like purifying
Or just flying
Since time itself doesn't know
What to do
With me and you

I don't know
What will be
But I see clearly
that reality
Has brought us together
With a love beyond words
More powerful than nature
And bigger than this life
A bond not made
By force of chains
But just made by our souls
as natural as breathing can be
I can't resist you
Nor you me

That our natural reaction
To each other's touch
Is absolute
And limitless love
And the more open we are
The deeper it goes
This is the most sacred love
I have ever known

And I believe
Through ebbs and flows
However this goes
It's going to bring you and I
back to each other
Over and over again

This is omniscient
Never recreated
And never destroyed
We can't help but love each so

Only time will show.

~44, 66, 77.. Xo~

How It All Works

Universe, Universe!

I love you! 

What kind of devious magic you do!

I have everything I need!!

And although you operate in crazy ways;

Synchronistic madness

Apocalyptic sadness

Love beyond words

Tears to the degree of the absurd..

I'll be damned, 

But I wouldn't change a thing.

Though you leave me in temporary agony

Or intense suspense

Momentary distress

You show me I am still your pampered princess

With ecstatic bliss beyond bliss

Love-induced trances of oneness

Love, love, love, 

exciting every particle of my being

Every moment an opportunity for freeing

Seeing has led to believing..

If I focus my heart and mind

What I find

Is what I feel I believe 

And if it's for the best I receive 

Exactly what I dreamed of or better

Don't let fear get the better

Of your heart..

Hard work required

Doubting is fired

I'll be damned 

But I believe


Love is everything.

Wednesday, May 7, 2014

The Mother Wound

Little girl
Hardly seen
Hardly noticed

Sweet and lovely
Swears she's ugly
Because eyes that once held stars for her
Gaze right past and through her
Glazed over
And ears
That once held rapture for her every sound
Now grew deaf to her
Except in urgency

She doesn't know
That it's on them
All she knows is that they say they love her
But she can't feel it

When you live all day and night
With no real connection
You learn to feed
Like a shark
When someone spends a moment
To notice your light

And the mirror of desperation in others
Is far too much to bear
Because it reveals
A wound
A weakness
So profound and terribly
That it seems to taint
Every breath
Every day..

Little girl doesn't know how to believe that anyone cares,
She doesn't believe that she deserves it anyway.

Full Attention indicates love~
When we fall in love
We gaze longer into each other's eyes
Nestle into each other's souls
Babies gaze for hours
Because they are nothing but love

When we love we look far deeper
Then we do
Most of the time
We don't hardly even look at each other's eyes
Or recognize the humanness of other humans
Dreary haze across the face
Eyes glazed
As we each live in our head
Replaying our mother wounds
In every scene
Creating drama to make us kings and queens
For a day
Believing only in indignance & desperation
That we will attract love
Addicted to the high
Of being sick..
Until one day, maybe, we can see..


Little girl
Grew up
Learned to starve herself
And to seek a perfect body
If the outside is flawless
They can't deny me..
Someone can love me
Even if I can't

Little girl
Died inside
A thousand and one times
Every day
Utterly alone
Rejecting every attention shown
Because she couldn't see
Past the ugliness she felt inside
And she died
All day
Every day
And one day
She gave up.

Little girl
Taught herself to believe
That she is lovable
Through a miracle
Through serendipity
Through sheer determination
To not be filled with so much mire and misery

Somehow learned that if a man doesn't see her look so good,
If she meets jealous scorn & not warmth in a beautiful woman's gaze,
If no one sees her when her hair is pretty,
Or her outfit striking..
If no one recognized the mellifluous sway of her hips
Like the goddess herself,
Like light shining rainbows of pleasure into the world
Through the prism of her heart..
If she is not seen
She learned that SHE sees
And divinity sees
Because It is the essence of everything..
Even her own pure loving heart.

Little girl learned that
Being seen by the light
Being seen by her own heart
Is seen enough.

Little girl
Was freed
From the need
To appease strangers
And distant hearts
But what of those she loves most?

Now little girl needs to learn
As full circle things seem to go,
That even the greatest loves of her life
Do not need to always see her
Sometimes their eyes will grow dim

Because like those who dealt her the wound
They are only human
And often consumed
In their own world
Their own growth and pain

And no amount of emptiness within her
Will fill them up
No amount of shame
Will make them smile at her the same way again
And no amount of loneliness
Will bring them back

No amount of yelling
Is ever telling
Them what really hurts her

So no matter what love she has
And no matter what bonds she cherishes
And that feed her soul

Her primary relationship will always be
between her own soul and the light therein..
The inner spark of Divinity.

Your primary relationship in this life,
Is between your Self-Soul & Cosmic Entirety,
So live your true passions,
And stop looking for approval
In the eyes and hearts of others.
It's there in the trees,
Bowing and swaying to recognize
Your presence, once again,
The birds sing to you,
And the air longs for you to breathe it in,
In passionate, joyful breaths
Of ecstasy,
Because you and Reality
Got a thing
And no one,
No loss,
No temporary disconnection,
Can sever

Don't be afraid
To break away
To let go
To stand back

And let those
That love you most
Catch up.

Never restrain your love,
Never grow cold,
But sometimes we must
Be hardened
Just enough
To lay the boundary,
That says I love you,
But you must respect me
And then I will give you my everything.

Love without fear
Because no matter who comes and goes, my dear,

You are your first and last lover,
The Beloved spark of light within.
Be your own best friend.
Nourish the hearts of others
By SEEING them, the way you want to be seen,
From the light of your soul to theirs,
As often as you can,
As long as you can.
But fall in love with yourself,
And you will never be so empty again.

Heal your mother wound,
Don't pass it on.
Pay the love forward,
And shine on.